Still waiting...

Current Read: Girl Who Kicked the Hornets Nest
Current Watch: Teen Mom
Current Procrastination: You guessed it...the pack n play laundry
Current Want: To get my results back!

So, today was my MRI. Not exactly a great time as I kept sneezing...but we should get the results back Friday - at the earliest - more realistically on Monday. Today has been a rough day. Mom is stressed and tired from taking care of me, the babies, and trying to clean my house up to "her standards." That will always be one thing we struggle with - Mom expects things to be a certain way - doesn't judge me for them not being it (even though I feel that she does) but in turn, I'm sitting with my leg elevated, miserable, watching her chase after my kids and do her best to make my house sparkle. Can we say guilt?? And...my house is not nasty...please get that straight - I wouldn't hesitate a second to let anyone who worked full time with 2 small kids enter my home. I think that they'd get it. They'd understand the dishes in the sink and maybe even relate to the pack n play full of laundry waiting to be folding. I hope that they'd even acknowledge that I managed to sweet and clean the bathroom and give me some well deserved dap. But...it's not perfect. My mom managed to create the Martha Stewart house. It was always decorated. Always spotless. I didn't get that gene. There's fingerprints and smudges. Diapers in the trashcan. At least one wine glass in the sink. But it's home. It also echoes with the laughter of a little boy and the squeals of a little girl expressing her glee. It has whispers of intimacy and shared secrets of two incredibly imperfect people who are in love. It's not perfect. But it's home.

My home.