So, as I previously mentioned, I'm pregnant with an absolutely beautiful and perfect baby girl who will make her appearance March 26th! When we found out that I was indeed knocked up, I hoped for a girl so that this could be my last pregnancy (I promised Romeo I'd try once more for a girl) - so - when Dr. Suiter said - "I think it's a Hadley Grace!" - I said - "THANK YOU JESUS! I DON'T HAVE TO DO THIS AGAIN!" For real. Totally legit.
This pregnancy has been much different than my first. Not many preterm contractions. Energy level is pretty decent...and all around...just better. One thing, however, that I didn't escape is that EVERYTHING has gotten bigger! Bigger emotions, bigger feet and hands, bigger belly, butt, face...you name it. It's been amazing to watch how I've grown.
When we first found out we were pregnant, I was happy. She was very much so planned and wanted and even prepared for...but a few days later, as I rocked Braxton to sleep...I began to weep uncontrollably. How in the world would I manage to love TWO babies? Braxton already had my heart bursting at the seams with joy, happiness, excitement, pride...how would it be possible for me to love another little person - THIS much?
To be honest...I didn't have answers. And I didn't have much peace. I just had to take a deep breath and say ready or not here we come...but...what I've noticed is that, Yes - my ring size has grown, my toes look like grapes that could be plucked, and I couldn't see my feet many months ago - I've indeed grown bigger. But, so has my heart. I definitely know that my love for my son hasn't diminished - he's such a remarkable little boy with the brightest eyes and biggest smile. No, my friend...my love has anything but diminished. So...my heart has simply grown. It's found a way to double it's capacity. So, now, as I hold my first precious gift from God in my arms, I no longer fret about loving another gift. I smile and tear up with joy thinking about how much love my arms are going to hold when I gather both of them in my arms, and how thankful I am that my heart has gotten bigger!
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